My Hearts At Home

• Aries: Slow people, laziness, ignorance, being bossed around, sensitive people, crying, laying in bed all day, beating around the bush, being told to shut up, not being respected, stupidity, people who can't think for themselves
• Taurus: Being rushed, being bothered when doing something, being disturbed during alone time, constant noise, being robbed of personal space, having to leave their comfort zone, being asked repeatedly, whining, quitters, fickleness, loud & obnoxious people, no food, ruthless individuals
• Gemini: Waiting, being ignored, daily routines, explaining themselves, homebodies, close mindedness, unrealistic expectations, being told to calm down, being stuck at home, not being able to text or call, being constantly reminded, sensitive people, miscommunication
• Cancer: Drama, being blamed, confrontation, yelling, unaffectionate lovers, dishonesty, fly by friends, twisted words, not being left alone, cold personalities, fighting
• Leo: Clingy people, discouraging others, non-independent people, admitting failure, explaining feelings, followers, talk with no actions, no motivation, questioning, pessimists, being doubted
• Virgo: Disrespect towards others, not getting alone time, untidy people, disorganization, bad grades, laziness, selfishness, feeling undermined, people who get emotionally attached too quickly, people asking them about their feelings, knowing they can do better, not knowing how to express their emotions, pressure, being called picky, being used, being constantly asked about something they'd rather not discuss
• Libra: Argumentative people, drama, people who hold grudges, their indecisiveness, negative people, not having anyone to talk to, unenthusiastic people, not being left alone when sad, advice being unused, small mindedness, self centeredness, being called a liar, not being able to do things as they want, being blamed for other decisions, unappreciative people, not being able to socialize, people who disturb the peace for no reason
• Scorpio: Having to rely on people, not being in control, disloyal friends, being told to get over it, dishonesty, greediness, people who can't take a joke, freeloaders, unmotivated people, inflexibility, having to explain emotions, closed off people, failure, non passionate lovers
• Sagittarius: Pessimism, unimaginative people, close mindedness, inflexibility, dwelling on the past, sensitive people, someone who can't take a joke, boredom, moodiness, talk with no action, close ended questions, unforgiving people, being stuck, being held down, feeling confined, being accused without reason
• Capricorn: Disorganization, not being in charge, being 2nd best, irresponsibility, people with no sense of structure or self discipline, laziness, being told they're not good enough, being doubted, not having their own money, freeloaders, someone failing to take responsibilities for their actions, being played, being pressured to open up, being rushed into something, being confused as cold rather than guarded, failure, admitting they need help
• Aquarius: Unmotivated people, advice with no potential, driving aimlessly, going somewhere with no plans, people giving advice with no experience, being belittled, being forced to show emotion, feeling isolated, taking orders
• Pisces: Feeling like they can't say no, being rejected, being taken advantage, facing the truth, confrontation, being questioned, being blamed/accused, pressure, feeling pushed around, not being heard

pyritegirl:

you know her skin is soft and invites thoughts of lust, her breasts are perky, she has calm blue eyes and her lips are ready to be kissed… but she’s one miserable and sad sad girl, with nothing to love anymore.

It’s just one of those days where I feel like I’m worth less than a rusted penny. I feel helpless today, I can’t do anything because of my leg, sitting up too long turns my leg red and it starts to throb. My bed is uncomfortable my cast Is uncomfortable, I’m hot and the house doesn’t get any cooler. I get yelled at for not asking my good for nothing waste of life brother for help, who has his head stuck so far up his ass he could care less about life and his surroundings but I’m the asshole.
My thoughts go uncared for. I try, I do, but at the end of the day is doesn’t matter who it is, or how much I think I matter I’m reminded I mean absolutely nothing. It’s something I’ve struggled with since I was 4 or 5, I was never good enough for my mom because I didn’t worship the ground she walked on and didn’t have the interest in the things she’s wanted me to and as I grew up I was never good enough to be the popular girl because I liked bremuda shorts and skate boards instead of short skirts and make up. If I ever tried to stop my parents from fighting I was a dumb child who had no idea what I was talking about, I was hit then sent to “my room”. I’ve been cheated on in every single relationship but one, I’ve been lied to by those I considered family, I’ve been shut into the dark time and time again only to be told “I did it for you” but what did you do? You sat and pretended to listen to me only to do everything I asked you not to and do as you pleased. You hurt me, and unfortunately to this day I can’t tell whether someone’s done it on accident or purpose, but no matter how they twist it, they did it in spite of me because “I don’t know what I’m talking about”.
It just gets harder as time passes, I’m alone in a crowded room of friends and loved ones. I watch them struggle time and time again make the exact mistakes I talk to them about so they can avoid but I get ignored. I sit alone. I am alone. I’m told I’m too emotional, I’m told I over analyze things, I’m told I’m making something out of nothing. If it was nothing I’d leave it alone. And when I do leave those nothings alone they turn into even bigger problems. I try to voice myself in the calmest nicest way, but it’s a voice everyone loves to silence. So when my way doesn’t work, I break, I crack…..I’m shattered I feel like walking away would be better because I don’t make the cut and I’m the only one who ends up hurt. They said they’d be hurt and sad without me but if that were true why do they intentionally push me to a point where I can see what I say doesn’t matter? Why do people think someone will stays is they show them they don’t matter? Why does an attempt to care turn and slap you in the face? 
I’ve lied to myself everytime someone betrayed me, everytime I was ignored, I lied and said they didn’t mean it but they did. They meant what they did and they meant every consequence to it. I’ve tried and tried to come to terms that they do mean it but I never could, I could never swallow the pill of someone intentionally hurting me. I still protected them, “they made a mistake” “they didn’t mean for all this”…..bullshit. They knew what they were doing, they knew the consequences. At 21, I can say I’ve finally swallowed that pill….and it hurts more than ever. 
But my feelings don’t matter. I’ll be written off as too emotional, I’ll be called dramatic. I always thought relationships of any kind friendship, family, romance…that they were about thinking about your partner first and how they’d feel, talk to them openly about it before, consider there side and reason and find a happy medium but time and time again I’m shown that it won’t happen till it’s an issue. I’m not perfect I’m far from it, but I try so hard to keep things leveled, to say things to people in a way that can be understood. It’s just a one sided road for me. No one bothers to step into my shoes. 

I can’t cry because then they’ll know I can’t sleep because my head hurts too much. I started bleeding again because I’m stressing myself out. I just wish so bad that I could be normal and do as others do to me. I wish I was ohkay with it. I wish I didn’t take things to heart and so hard. I wish I could just take a deep breath and it be gone. I wish I wasn’t me sometimes I wish I wasn’t

kaylaaazee:

mrcomatoseoverthr:

shuckl:

wildy0ungbeautiful:

shuckl:

could i pay someone to take over my body who actually knows how to look after it so they can like. make me healthy again and then let me take over once i’m fit n healthy

You mean a personal trainer and a nutritionist

no i mean some sort of supernatural being who can do literally all of the work for me

So like the ghost of a personal trainer and nutritionist

Yes

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f3lix-and-g3eks:

i love when kisses get so intense you just grab at each other because you literally cannot get any closer to each other. Thats my favorite thing. or when you aren’t thinking and kisses get sloppy and you get a mouthful of teeth. i love when you get side tract and you kiss hard and you were supposed to be gentle but you end up being slammed into a wall. i like when things get hot and you both are literally panting because you cant catch your breath. 

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